Its been a long time and I am still engaged, we have been together for 14 months now and we have had a baby girl, she wa born 11 april 06. her name is Charlie and she is a double of her daddy. I am still studying childcare but have taken on two new courses aswell. Btec first in performing arts which I start in September and next year I do an access into health and social care- nursing and midwifery.

Amanda is 15 months old and very lively, she is very clever and claps and laughs she is starting to talk and walk, I have my hands very full.

I am going to the Red Hot Chili Peppers concert!!! YAY

All from me for now.

I am now 11 weeks pregnant.
I am engaged.
I have just got a two bedroom flat.

Good things happen to those who wait! It has been a long time coming but I finally feel like a human being and I now feel as if I fit into the world! My daughter is healthy and now 6 months old. I have a new lease on life now that I know she is healthy and growing properly. I can't beleive it happens all so fast.

It justs proves my power of three theory!

7 July 2005 SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Im eating breakfast when I get a phone call from my mom, ''Aldgate East tube station is closed because there was an explosion, where are you?'' I get another phone call saying don't get on the tube at all because there was an explosion at Edgeware Road tube station. OK so that bit ass, that was the first fuck up of the day!
Then later on that night my daughter goes into hospital due to an infection of some sort in her blood and is still there today , the doctors can't tell me anything until later! GRRRRRRRRRRR
So now all I can do is wait!
To top it all off I get fucking sick with bronchitis!
I hate that bad luck happens in threes!!!!!!
Well enough of that I now know that it will all be good and returned in three too!

We slow danced for what felt like forever but it was not that long unfortunatly, I wish moments like that would last forever!
We are so lucky to have eachother and our beautiful daughter. I wouldn't give either of them up they are my world!

I am soon to be Catholic, my baby and I are getting baptized next month. The man I am marrying is Catholic and we want a huge church wedding. Everything is going so smooth except one thing, will the pain ever go away ? Its quite worrying actually. I have pian in my side. Anyway its all worth it in the end even if I am in pain, I know it will go away but the love we share never will!!! I am so